Tigger VS. Eeyore

WARNING SAPPY BLOG AHEAD:
The professor who gave the "Last Lecture" died this week. This guy was amazing. He had such a positive attitude even after finding out he was dying.
In his lecture he said you can choose to be a "Tigger" or an "Eeyore". For some reason that stuck with me. I have always liked Eeyore and as you well know I am often very much an Eeyore.
With all of the recent changes in my life I have been doing some self examination. I have been thinking of ways I would like to change. One of the thing I would like to change is I want to scale down my Eeyore quotient. I am never going to be a Tigger. In fact I have always hated Tigger. I think I am aiming at being more like Piglet. Piglet was always so helpful to everyone. I have decided I need to be more like that and I need to start living life to the fullest. I need to take every opportunity I have to be with my family and friends.
I have had a lot of time on my hands lately so I decided to check up on an old friend. My friend Nan was amazing. I met her while working at the Sundance Film Festival. She was a kick. She was this fabulous broadway broad. She seemed like she should have been born in the 1920's. I could totally see her as a flapper chick singing jazz in some club. Nan taught me about being fabulous or as she called it Fabu. Well when I moved into this house Nan called me with some bad news. Her breast cancer was back and her doctors told her she didn't have long. She wanted to come over for a sleep over. When she told me the news my brain didn't really process it. I kind of just skipped over it. We made plans for a sleep over but she got sick. And then we decided to post pone. I told her that we had just ordered some furniture and it would be best if we waited for it to come. We made other plans and she told me that she didn't know how long she had. She kept warning me that she wasn't going to be around much longer. She told me that she was planning to move back East to be with her family. I of course focused on her moving part and not the dying part. I didn't talk to Nan again. I've always liked to pretend that she had moved and that I had just lost contact with her. Well recently I decided I needed to know. I did a search and found her obiturary. I feel like the biggest loser. I couldn't handle finding out her cancer was back so I didn't. I think it was because of my mother's battle with breast cancer. I think the whole thing was just too much for me so I dwelled on the fact that my house wasn't up to par for guests. RETARDED! I have decided that I will NEVER let this happen again. I will never ignore a friends again. Who gives a crap what your house looks like. As long as you are surrounded by your loved ones nothing else matters.
I guess seeing the news about the Last Lecture is what started this rant. I just wanted to put my pledge to live a better life out there so that I know I have to live up to it. So that one day when I am doing my Last Blog I can do it with a smile like Professor Randy Pausch.

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The Obsession Continues

I am out of control. I just watched the movie Penelope. Which by the way was awesome. Before the movie starts you get a fabulous sneak peek at the Twilight movie. I watched it a gzillion times. I can not wait for the movie to come out. I am such a geek that just yesterday I entered a contest to interview Stephenie Meyer on the radio. The funny thing is I don't know if I could do it. I think I would be so excited to me her that I would throw up. In my entry email I tried to sound cool... like that is possible, especially considering I basically wrote an email that said Stephenie Meyer is my idol. I know 32 year olds should know better then to have idols. I can't help it. Anyway I said that I studied documentary film making so I would be good at interviewing her. I think the truth is that I would be like, " OMG I LOVE your books!" "I want to marry Edward if well he was real/ human and I wasn't already married"

Redecorating

So I am going to redecorate my office. I want to do something kind of funky because well I can. I am thinking about basing the theme of the office around these two cool prints I found on print and pattern. I am planning to paint all of the walls the blue color that is in the scissor picture except one wall I will paint the same yellow/orange as the pencils. I will leave the ceiling and the trim white. And then hang the scissor picture on the yellow wall and the pencil picture on a blue wall. I am buying a light wood desk. I have a white cubby/cabinet thing. If I get brave enough to do it I will post the results.

Too Much

So I think I might watch too much TV. I had a dream about America's Next Top Model. I dreamt that Tyra Banks decided to stop hosting the show to become a contestant instead. And then she lost. It was funny. Of course I have know idea why I am dreaming about a cheezy reality show.
Though sometimes I do feel like the universe is telling me that "There are two beautiful paths infront of me but I only have one picture. The path whose picture I am holding you must go pack your bags and go on immediately. " ie I was debating whether to leave my job and the Universe said well you have to work certain hours or you can no longer work there. Then I was debating whether to leave my little guy in daycare so that I could go do volunteer work or school or something and then the Universe told me that the daycare has another kid that would like his space. I guess the Universe is telling me that I am going to be America's Next Top Mama.

Addiction

Unfortunately I have an addiction. I am addicted to Stephenie Meyer's books. Especially to the Twilight series. What really sucks about this addiction is that the last book isn't out yet. I am dying to find out what happens to Bella. Whether she will become a vampire or not. How pathetic that occasionally my thoughts wander and I find myself guessing what will happen in "Breaking Dawn" Now this wouldn't be as embarassing if the Twilight series were adult books, but no they are for teenagers. Which pretty much confirms that I am still a 17 year old girl stuck in the body of a 32 year old. Actually I probably more like 13 but I was trying to give myself the benefit of the doubt. Speaking of my teen years I just got out my High School year book. Recently I have joined facebook and found people from High School. What a blast from the past. Reading all of the little notes left by people in my yearbook 14 years ago. Crazy how people who were so important to you back then you can barely remember now. It was so funny to remember who I had a crushes on. It was also fun to see that I have stayed friends with a few people. In fact I read what my friend Jamie wrote, I hope she doesn't mind me quoting it, "I'm looking forward to the rest of our lives together as adults". That is so funny because she was the person who set me up with my husband. And nothing says adulthood more then marriage and a mortgage :)

The Begining

Well I just quit my job so I am officially a stay at home mom/domestic ceo. It is a strange change. My schedule for the day is busy, busy, busy. First I am going to go check out the sidewalk sale at Osh Kosh and then I am going to come home and see what Judge Alex has to say. I think I will pick myself up a Diet Caffeine Free Coke to enjoy while I watch the crazy goings on, on my court program. See mama has to watch her court programs in case anyone ever needs legal advice. Just the other day I realiezed that Judge Alex has changed the way I do things. Now, when I write a check to someone I make sure that I write in the memo line what it is for. That way they can't sue mama for not paying them. Some people might think I am wasting time watching tv but I have learned a lot from my programs. Just the other day I learned Anne Boelyn got her head cut off. I didn't know that! It was quite a shocker at the end of "The Other Boelyn Girl". I guess today I will learn what happens to the nice folks on the Titanic. I hope that ends well. I have heard it is a good program, and mama likes happy endings :)